That’s On Me

Is this just getting older?

I can't get away from this rain

I'm starting to think that it's me, and

I wanna just create things

But the longer it takes, I feel drained

Can't remember a day I've been sober

Not in a place to take blame

Any more weight, I might break

Tell me, do you feel the same?

Guess we all go the same way

I'm in a bit of a mess here

Count to ten and hope to disappear

I never did my homework

Could I have been more than this?

Finding a way to exist

Within a world with no risk

Forcing a shoe that won't fit

I spend most the day stoned and

Making excuses for it

Saying it helped to write this

But, on the real, I'm tight-lipped

Shooting a shot that I'll miss

And it's so far from near

Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives

This is just a bump in the ride

And I know that it will be alright

And if it's not, then we're fucked, aren't we?

I can't help myself but cry

Every time that I realise

Maybe I'll never find my smile

But who's to blame? Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me

Now that the weather is colder

Nothing is masking this pain

The summer was here, but won't stay, and

We are inside, like, all day

Regretting the things that we say

And it takes a toll, yeah

The conversation won't end

Being a rock for your friends

Cracks in the surface don't mend

We only break, we don't bend

And you'd think it was so clear

But I can't see nothing but the fear

I'm feeling so bloated

Thinking a salad won't do

Might as well open up two

Locking myself in my room

Hoping that this all ends soon

And no one will notice

What I will put myself through

'Cause they will hate themselves too

Isn't it mad what we do?

Pretending to win, but just lose

And it's so far from near

Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives

This is just a bump in the ride

And I know that it will be alright

If it's not, then we're fucked, aren't we?

I can't help myself but cry

Every time that I realise

Maybe I'll never find my smile

But who's to blame? Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me

Too many things on my mind

To process moments of life

That some days I lose my drive

And some can't control the fire

I'm aware that things take time

But I'm not a patient guy

Maybe if I wait, I'll find

Resemblance of peace of mind

But this is just getting older

Running away from our past

Knowing the calm, it won't last

Being a mouse in this grass

Feeling the snakes behind us, and

I'm searching for closure

But nothing is healing these scars

When I open up, they just laugh

Saying if they had just half

Then nothing would ever be dark

Is it "new me, new year"

Or just the same old blue sphere?

This is not the end of our lives

This is just a bump in the ride

And I know that it will be alright

If it's not, then we're fucked, aren't we?

I can't help myself but cry

Every time that I realise

Maybe I'll never find my smile

But who's to blame? Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me