That’s On Me - Live from Narine’s Living Room

Is this just gettin' older?

I can't get away from this rain

I'm startin' to think that it's me

And I wanna just create things

But the longer it takes, I feel drained

Can't remember a day I've been sober

Not in a place to take blame

Any more weight, I might break

Tell me, do you feel the same?

Guess we all go the same way

I'm in a bit of a mess here

I count to ten and I hope to disappear

I never I did my homework

Could I have been more than this?

Findin' a way to exist

Within a world with no risk

Forcin' a shoe that won't fit

I spend most the days stoned

And makin' excuses for it

Sayin', "It helped to write this"

But on the real, I'm tight-lipped

Shootin' the shot that I'll miss

And it's so far from near

Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives

This is just a bump in the ride

And I know that it will be alright

And if it's not, then we're fucked, aren't we?

I can't help myself but cry every time that I realise

Maybe I'll never find my smile

But who's to blame? Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me, well, that's on me

Now that the weather is colder

Nothin' is maskin' this pain

The summer was here, but won't stay

And we are inside, like, all day

Regrettin' the things that we say

And it takes a toll, yeah

The conversation won't end

Bein' a rock for your friends

Cracks in the surface don't mend

We only break, we don't bend

And you'd think it was so clear

But I can't see nothin' but the fear

I'm feelin' so bloated

Thinkin' a salad won't do

Might as well open up two

Lockin' myself in my room

Hopin' that this'll end soon

And no one will notice

What I will put myself through

'Cause they will hate themselves too

Isn't it mad what we do?

Pretendin' to win, but just lose

And it's so far from near

Why the hell am I still here?

This is not the end of our lives

This is just a bump in the ride

And I know that it will be alright

And if it's not, then we're fucked, aren't we?

I can't help myself but cry every time that I realise

Maybe I'll never find my smile

But who's to blame? Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me, well, that's on me

Too many things on my mind

To process moments of life

There's some days I lose my drive

Then, some, can't control the fire

I'm aware that things take time

But I'm not a patient guy

Maybe, if I wait, I'll find

Resemblance of peace of mind

This is just gettin' older

Runnin' away from our past

Knowin', the calm, it won't last

Bein' a mouse in this grass

Feelin' the snakes behind us

And I'm searchin' for closure

But nothin' is healin' these scars

When I open up, they just laugh

Sayin' if they had just half

Then nothin' would ever be dark

Is it, "New me, new year"

Or just the same old blue sphere?

This is not the end of our lives

This is just a bump in the ride

And I know that it will be alright

And, if it's not, then we're fucked, aren't we?

I can't help myself but cry every time that I realise

Maybe I'll never find my smile

But who's to blame? Well, that's on me

Well, that's on me, well, that's on me

Well, that's on me