Lessons

I'm alive, that's a plus

But it's getting heavy, better lighten up

I'm a liar, I'm a lush

I don't think I'm ready to let go of the rush

Hold on so tightly to my pride

You'll never see the tears I cry

Behind the curtain where I hide

Once they dry, I'm runnin' to the spotlight

But I don't wanna lose control

I feel the ceiling cavin' in

And all the lessons that unfold

I learn again and again and again

And I don't wanna lose control

I feel the pressure closin' in

And all the lessons that unfold

I learn again and again and again

And again and again and again and again

Fall in love, call my bluff

Think he's on a knee but he's just pulling the rug

All alone, all for what?

Look around but I don't see someone I can trust

And now the blame is only mine

I'm in a hell of my design

'Cause I don't know how to define

What I want, what I don't, now I've run out of time

I don't wanna lose control

I feel the ceiling cavin' in

And all the lessons that unfold

I learn again and again and again

I don't wanna lose control

I feel the pressure closin' in

And all the lessons that unfold

I learn again and again and again

And again and again and again and again

All of my history plays out in front of me

Like they're reruns on the screen

All the same mistakes, ****in' up every take

And I'm the same in every scene

Killin' off the cast, showin' up in all of my past

Like I'm some human guillotine

Calling "Cut, that's enough," I should go with my gut

But I don't 'cause I know that I

I don't wanna lose control

I feel the ceiling cavin' in

And all the lessons that unfold

I learn again and again and again

I don't wanna lose control

I feel the pressure closin' in

And all the lessons that unfold

I learn again and again and again

And again and again and again and again

And again and again and again and again (Ooh)

And again and again and again and again

And again and again and again and again (Ah)