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(Jxmie Music)

Yo

Mazza_l20

Love me or hate me

All this pain in my life, I need compensating

For all them laps on the yard, but I'm not Jamaican

I sent burn down the toilet in the block for Clayton

Spent hours at the window conversating

Neighbour doing life, suicidal, contemplating

Last ten years, I've been a prisoner, my occupation

Every day, I'm getting watched like an observation

Got me waiting on a date like a doctor's patient

Now I'm feeling like Stan how I adopt the patience

For the next seven years, bro, I've got probation

I'vе got a prison number looking like a combination

And now I'm stuck with this shit like somе constipation

**** said he's not a snitch, but I've got the statement

I got nicked with three straps because I got complacent

I'm tryna tell you 'bout my life, but it's complicated

I'm tryna put it all together like a compilation

I'm tryna turn my life around, I feel obligated

I watched my bruddas go to jail and then we alternated

Since then, I've been looking for alternatives

They keep adding to the case like it's adulterated

I've got an extra two years for the altercation

'Cause I seen him on a visit, then we altercated

Fuck the roads, it's gassed up, bro, it's overrated

I was calling them my bruddas, but we're not related

We're meant to keep it in the streets, but they cooperated

I watched people turn fake and then they congregated

I took bullets, went to sleep and then they operated

Claustrophobic, in a cell, I felt suffocated

Seen bodies, bro, they never got resuscitated

Solitary confined, I was segregated

S done a protest on the block, defecated

And I'm the voice of the trenches, I've been delegated

They wasn't doing what they said, so they got relegated

I'm Nipsey Hussle with the rap because I'm dedicated

I'm tryna blow like a bomb that's been detonated

I'm tryna blow up and leave the scene decimated

'Cause when they give me extra time, I was devastated

I've got a girl, bro, imagine if she never waited

I just keep myself busy, self-educated

I was fifteen the last birthday I celebrated

I started rapping in a cell and then I elevated

I'm tryna rise to the top like I've levitated

I tried putting people on, bro, I've never hated

I even showed 'em how to do it, bro, I demonstrated

They was putting dirt on my name, so we separated

I really got it out the mud like I excavated

And I can tell you 'bout them bullets, how they penetrated

Looking down the barrel, coulda died, but he hesitated

Broke the handle on the shotty, had to Sellotape it

'Member when the doctor told me that I should be medicated

For all these built-up emotions that I've generated

I've tried everything, bro, I've even meditated

And people ask me how I'm doing, I just say I'm good

Even when I know I'm not, just tell 'em I'm misunderstood

Haven't phoned my mum for two months although I know I should

I'm just working hard to get my family all out the hood

And free the lifers, when I left, I gave them a hug

Doesn't cost nothing to be loyal and to show them love

And if you're playing with my name, then you can catch a ****

I've been gone for years, so for now, I'm just catching up

COVID-19 the only time that they was masking up

Got these mask and gloves[Outro]

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