loving you is

Used to love it when we'd fight like grown ups

You made me hate myself so I could love us

It's funny when I think about it all now

You'd point out all the ways that I was fucked up

You'd say that I'm so lucky you're a good one

It's funny when I think about it all now

Gave you every part of me

You don't know what you can't see

Loving you is difficult, irrational

You hate when I'm emotional, manipulative

I feel like shit with everything I try to give

I let you rip me all to shreds

I'm scared to make the same mistakes again (again, again)

And I can't even ask for help or trust myself

I always chose your mental health

And you just want a girl to make you feel okay about yourself

I let you rip me all to shreds

And I won't make the same mistake again (again, again, again)

I was just a kid and you knew that

It didn't take you much to make me feel bad

You made me do some things that I can't take back

And I can't stand that

I gave you every part of me

But you don't know what you can't see

Loving you is difficult, irrational

You hate when I'm emotional, manipulative

I feel like shit with everything I try to give

I let you rip me all to shreds

I'm scared to make the same mistakes again (again, again)

And I can't even ask for help or trust myself

I always chose your mental health

And you just want a girl to make you feel okay about yourself

I let you rip me all to shreds

And I won't make the same mistake again

Again, again, again

I feel bad for the next girl

Who thinks that you can change

I feel bad for the next girl that you beg to stay

I feel bad for the next girl

Who's gonna feel this way

Who's gonna feel this way

Loving you is difficult, irrational

I hate that it's so personal

Manipulative, I feel like shit

With all the love I try to give

I let you rip me all to shreds

I'm scared to make the same mistake again

Again again again

And I can't even ask for help or trust myself

I always chose your mental health

And you just want a girl to make you feel okay about yourself

I let you rip me all to shreds

And I won't make the same mistake again