Jazzy's Tale

I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long

I was chasing a love

And a life that I grew up seeing with my parents

So it was more-so about an idea in my head

Than an actual relationship that I had

Also, I just didn't want to be alone

Growing up, a brown skin girl

A fat girl

Essentially growing up feeling undesirable

I got older and I had a man that desired me

It validated me, and made me feel good about myself

Therefore, the content that the validation brought me

Was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought

And it's a sad, scary, invulnerable place when you need to feel love

So much that you're willing to accept anything