How I'm Feeling Now - Orchestral Version

Will you forgive me if I'm coming off a little bit obtuse?

Well, it's been a minute now since I have had to tell the truth

I know I can

I won't

Suppose I thought that by this moment I would have it figured out

But instead, I tend to spend my days consumed by seeds of doubt

I know I can

I won't

Oh, darling, it goes on and on and on

Always, forever, 'til I'm barely holding on

End of my tether and I know it won't be long

It won't be long 'til it's gone

So here's to my beautiful life

That seems to leave me so unsatisfied

No sense of self, but self-obsessed

I'm always trapped inside my fucking head

On and on and on, on and on and on

On and on and on, on and on and on

Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow

If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"

I try to tell myself my best days are the ones that lie ahead

But I'm always looking back on things I wish I'd never said

I know I can

I won't

Oh, darling, it goes on and on and on

Always, forever, 'til I'm barely holding on

End of my tether and I know it won't be long

It won't be long 'til it's gone

So here's to my beautiful life

That seems to leave me so unsatisfied

No sense of self, but self-obsessed

I'm always trapped inside my fucking head

On and on and on, on and on and on

On and on and on, on and on and on

Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow

If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"

I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah

But I'll get there

No, I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah

But I'll get there

So here's to my beautiful life

That seems to leave me so unsatisfied

No sense of self, but self-obsessed

I'm always trapped inside my fucking head

On and on and on, on and on and on

On and on and on, on and on and on

Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow

If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"