Back To December

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

I gave you roses, and you left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standin' in front of you sayin', "I'm sorry for that night"

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you

Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around, and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping

Stayin' up, playin' back myself leavin'

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughin' from the passenger side and

Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days

When fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standin' in front of you, sayin', "I'm sorry for that night"

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you

Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around, and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how I held you in my arms that September night

The first time I ever saw you cry

Maybe this is wishful thinkin'

Probably mindless dreaming

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride

Standin' in front of you, sayin', "I'm sorry for that night"

And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you

Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around, and make it alright

I go back to December, turn around, and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

All the time