I'm Ready, I Am

I'm nicotine

I'm coming clean

I fooled the crowd

When I made it sound like I was more than ready

Strike up the band

Deprive my sleep

Cause there's no love like apathy

The bell that tolls rings loud enough

That it should have woke us up

I'm trying to find truth

In words, in rhymes, in notes

In all the things I wish I'd wrote

Cause i feel like i've been losing you

I read your last entry

Over-privileged kids keep crying

The need to fit in gets harder

When living life from a screen

Old classmates please drop all your pens

Don't write a word cause I won't reply

And I'm not bitter, no it's just I've passed that point in my life

I'm trying to find truth

In words, in rhymes, in notes

In all the things I wish id wrote

Cause I feel like I've been losing you

Each night it ends too soon

You don't hold me like you used to

And your eyes look like they've seen too much coz

It's always some excuse

Too tired, too obtuse

You look so far removed

This time I fear I'm losing you for good

Im nicotine im a cash machine

Im the color green

And you shoulda seen the looks i just recieved

I need a reason to let go

An intervention a lullaby

Something to cure me please believe me

I'm trying to find truth

In words, in rhymes, in notes

In all the things I wish I'd wrote

Cause I feel like I've been losing you

Each night it ends too soon

You don't hold me like you used to

And your eyes look like they've seen too much but

It's always some excuse

Too tired, too obtuse

You look so far removed

This time I fear I'm just not getting through