Colored Dreams / Killers Pt. 2

Yeah

Mama I just killed a man,

body is still tremblin' can you feel my hand?

Don't shed no tears mama

Look I said: Mama I just killed a man

Body is still tremblin' can you feel my hands?

Don't shed no tears mama

Man convicted in the shooting death of the Milwaukee

teenager will be behind walls until he's at least eighty years old

Police said Demario Denelle Jackson shot into a crowd during a fight

and killed a fourteen year old, As Jordan Cappen reports from court

Yeah

I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years

'til the judge say it's okay to come out

I need an escape and a way to run out

People say that thy love you but you ain't breaking me out

I'll probably die up in this motherfucker, shit

I've accepted that and I am finding peace, uh

Long nights I've been trying to sleep

But I can't, so let me write you this apology

This for your girl, look I'm sorry mama

I put a bullet in 'em, I took your heart from you

I killed your man and now you're forced to be apart from him

You daughter walking who gon' catch her when she starts running?

I was only nineteen doing foolish things for colors

Your tears in the courtroom I can tell you loved him

I thought I was being gangster when I took his life

Now I can barely sleep during night

I get it now fuck these colored dreams

Shit

I get it now fuck these colored dreams

Fuck these colored dreams

Fuck these colored dreams

Shit

I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years

Shit, might as well apology to the rest

And to my brother I claimed I love you more than the rest

If I really loved you how come I did guide you to your death

You was only twelve when I got locked up

Pop shook, no role models for the block looks like the only option

Should have made you put them Glocks down

but instead I showed you how to get it popping

And you took to it, nah you was never shook to it

Even if trouble ain't were around you would look to it

Throwing upset,

you let them know you wasn't no

bitch 'til you run into multiple cripps

You let them niggas know you'll be down for your niggas

Thinkin' in your head: Big bro' will be proud of a nigga

I hate to have to be the way for you to go

What's even worse I couldn't make it to your funeral

Fuck them colored dreams

Shit

Fuck these colored dreams

Fuck them colored dreams

Look mama I know I killed that man

Still remember trembling when you felt my hand

Don't shed no tears mama, uh

I know I won't be home for years mama

I know you feel like a failure to all your peers mama

You been a blessing to me

I been a curse since birth to you

Made shit worse for you

They left me off the second I wouldn't even search for you, shit

It only make it harder

You care so much that you would kill for me

I get your letters and I wonder how you still love me

You say you pray every night and you still feel for me

Shit and if you could I know you

probably would do this bit for me, shit

So what's it been the last time I speak to you

I wan't you to know I love you with everything in me

And since they ain't told me you share DNA with me

We polar opposites I know I failed you

mama wish I could be your accomplishment

So as I stand on this chair writing this letter

Noose around my neck the only way I do better if I leave you now

'cause you been beaten down from them other things

I ain't give you shit but other brings, I get it now

Fuck these...