In The Car Outside

I'm in the car

I just needed to clear my head

She's in the house

With the baby crying on the bed

She's got this thing

Where she puts the walls so high

It doesn't matter how much you love

It doesn't matter how hard you try

We got a place

With a fence and a little grass

I put this film on the windows

And it looks like chapel glass

But when she turns

It's like the shadow of the cross don't cast

No blessing over our lonely life

It's like waiting for a train to pass

And I don't know when it'll pass

But I remember when she used to set the room on fire

With her eyes

Swear to God

It's like a flood of grief and sorrow from a haunted life

When she cries

Like a train

It's a lot

I dropped a line

To a flickering high school flame

We laughed about

All the ways that our lives had changed

She's up the road

About 35 miles north

Got two little boys in school

Just had a real bad divorce

And in a moment of weakness

I told her if she ever needed a helping hand

I would lend

Swear to God

It's like the part of me

That's screaming not to jump gets lost

In the sound

Of the train

It's a lot

I'm trying hard

Not to cave

Swear to God