Can't Remember a Smile

The smell of old floors and doors

These walls

Used to be dark violet blue

I'm standing on top of the stairs

Her hands on arms

Eyes straight into mine

Tells me she's found us some place new

It was a feeling of relief or indifference

How can I know for sure?

For sure

When these are nothing but

The tiniest fractions of time

Like every memory never felt alive

Like a slide show in fast motion

I can't remember a smile

Was it a fight in the hall? Or a war?

I think I recall

The first time I rode my red bike

With three wheels and a luggage rack

Oh but again what do I know?

What do I know?

When these are nothing but

The tiniest fractions of time

Like every memory never felt alive

Like a slide show in fast motion

I can't remember a smile

Or even reminisce a glimpse of anything worthwhile

Might be the root to my queries

And a grief

That I even carry in my sleep

I'm always dreaming up things

Just like that little girl

Who's stepping so quietly out of bed

Oh to talk to the stars

When these are nothing but

The tiniest fractions of time

Like every memory never felt alive

Like a slide show in fast motion

I can't remember a smile

When these are nothing but

The tiniest fractions of time (What do I know?)

Like every memory never felt alive

(What do I know?)

Like a slide show in fast motion

I can't remember a smile