Pain (feat. Sonta and J Tsunami)

1995, Fall night, October 8th

Most people say a star was born but nah

That's when I was born and I wasn't born a star

Nigga I wasn't born on top

I remember walking home from school when moms ain't have no car

Me, my cousin, six deep, walking back to granny's spot

School in another district so that's like eleven blocks

And on that walking, shooting, niggas selling rocks to hella cops

Fast forward ten years later, man that shit ain't never stop

I became a product, all my niggas selling product

Growing up they want them dollars, birthdays without no fathers

And I had my dad so I couldn't really understand they pain

You don't even see his face but you got that nigga name

And my problem with my pops is just we don't communicate

I see his face all the time but it just happen by

He know I love him, that's my nigga, I ain't gotta lie

But you can't give a bird his wings and teach him how to fly

I'm hard bodied, heavy thinker, I'm a handle man

He told me that, I give him that, yeah I'm a handle man

Nigga I was sixteen, living like a grown man

Never needed nobody, nigga I'm my own man

And my mama love me for it, she tell me she proud of me

I always had it in me, she like how I brought it out of me

She stay right by my side, back when everybody doubted me

They thought that I would end up in the pen or the county seat

But now I'm in a penthouse suite, on the balcony

I used to think a million was for everybody

You gon' grow up and have a house, that life for everybody

But wait, just one rich person can't take care of everybody

The world is filled with pain (yeah)

The world is filled with pain (oh)

The world is filled with pain

The world is filled with pain

Man I used to post up, early morning soon as I woke up

Went to sleep at four somethin', skip breakfast, swishers and donuts

With the same niggas, every day the same shit

War with the same suckers, fucking on the same bitches

Then a thought came to my head and said you gotta expand

You passed the ball enough, it's time to keep the rock in your hand

I know all the pressure like you got the block in your hands

Can't forget about 'em, yeah I know that Rock was your mans

But can't forget your sister, mother, brother, pops and your grams

Don't owe nobody shit, the lifestyle come after the fam

And never leave my brothers, that's for life, the block is my fam

Damn, who I'm sacrificing for? The block and my fam

But anyway I miss my niggas, so that's why I'm getting twisted

I don't sip the liquor, I'm just high pouring sixes

And I'm riding with my 45

Cause I ain't tryna end up victim of a homicide

Not my mama crying

The world is filled with pain (yeah)

The world is filled with pain (oh)

The world is filled with pain

The world is filled with pain

Understand that I can relate to everything that you saying

Cause I grew up just like you

It was me and my lil brother, pops, lil G and mama too

My grandfather, one auntie, two uncles and they children too

All them people under one roof but we took that and we made do

Back in the day my folks had cake so people thought that we was on

But truth be told shit more than half

Of that was gone 'fore I was born

Three years old, that's when moms and pops relationship was torn

Them not fucking with each other made me father my lil brothers

From the city to the 'burbs, we was going back and forth

So I was in and out of schools, lived everywhere but west and north

Eating pork and beans and noodles, not by choice but more so forced

Till one day I told myself I can't continue on this course

Now let's speed it up, 2005 I came back to the hood

Started hustling lil packs and everything was going good

Plus I had my own gun, so I wish a nigga would

Try to take anything from me I'd have left him where he stood

I grew out that state of mind, the games I was playing was kiddy

Then here come 2009, all I hear is you and Bibby

I had faith in y'all but who'd have thought y'all take over the city

Used to feel like y'all forgot about or just wasn't fucking with me

I was rapping at the time but y'all was putting in that work

And I ain't even gon' lie, when y'all took off, shit I was hurt

Cause I expected a handout, that's where I fucked up first

But I thank y'all cause y'all the reason I go cray on every verse

The world is filled with pain (yeah)

The world is filled with pain (oh)

The world is filled with pain

The world is filled with pain

I just wanna smile, I just wanna ball

I just wanna do it all, I just wanna leave

I just wanna smile, I just wanna ball

I just wanna do it all, I just wanna leave

I just wanna smile, I just wanna ball

I just wanna do it all, I just wanna leave

I just wanna smile, I just wanna ball

I just wanna do it all, I just wanna leave

The world is filled with pain (yeah)

The world is filled with pain (oh)

The world is filled with pain

The world is filled with pain