H.O.P.E. (feat. Haben)

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

I'm tired of going through the motions

I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end

Show me the way

Show me the way out

Is there a way?

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

Social anxiety from a broken society

My appearance invincible but I'm torn up inside of me

The introverted

Introspective

At times I'm insecure but still we learned

That a dream deferred is not a dream deserted

You tell yourself "it's not that bad", it really is

Tryna filter like u feed 'em a selfie

You been tryna bury these burdens so deep it's unhealthy

Just cuz you carry it so well don't mean it ain't heavy yeah

I used to think that suicide's for the weak and the selfish

I used to think depression's not a disease in itself cuz

I used to underestimate the darkness in the mind of a person

That's hurting with self hatred and feeling helpless

I knew this girl that had witnessed

Her closest friend get murdered by her boyfriend

A lost soul at the cross roads

Just a teen full of big dreams now her heart cold

Forever stained by the ink of this dark soul

So now she traumatized in her mind

And she feeling like she stuck in chains

So she looking for something to numb the pain

And you can tell by the needle marks all across her arms

She gradually graduated to letting go of God

Her father found out but it seems like he don't give a

It's been some years now and he starting to get sick of it

To say his daughter is a junkie, face it

At night he tries escaping reality till he's wasted

So now her mother took a second job never off

She be working late every single day she exhausted

She gives her own daughter the money to go buy the heron

Just so she won't be out in these streets selling her body

Or selling her soul

But she enables her in spite though

Trapped in this vicious cycle

That's the devil's disciple

They hate it when I say it but I love 'em

Cuz the mother is my auntie the addict's my little cusin

True story

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

I'm tired of going through the motions

I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end

Show me the way

Show me the way out

Is there a way?

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

Hold On Pain Ends

Hold On Pain Ends

I don't feel like there's any way out

But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends

Hold On Pain Ends

Hold On Pain Ends

I don't feel like there's any way out

But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends

Social anxiety from a broken society

My appearance invincible but I'm torn up inside of me

I never been the type to start questioning God but see

This just really don't make sense honestly

Cuz he been coming to my shows since he was only ten

Dragged along his mother, his aunty, I start to notice them

Show after show, year after year, the lil' homie was there

Sometimes i ain't had no crowd it was only them

So naturally we start to grow as friends

From my biggest fan to my fam

I really seen him grow up since

From a teen to young adult to a future doctor

You made your mama so proud king, who can stop ya!?

But then we heard about the cancer in your brain

You in your early twenties, this madness it's insane

But you fought it like a soldier that's in battle through the rain

Only child to a single mother, imagine what a pain

That your mama go through

Anna baby, we love you

He was your angel on this earth now the angel above you

But now we suffocate with hurt and this pain we succumb to

Man how you gon' die right before my career take off

Cuz we finally made it dawg you can smile my boy

Josh we did a song with Nas my boy

Wish you came along on this ride my boy

Could've never done it without you, on God my boy

Was asked to perform at your funeral I couldn't do it

I'm tryna hold my composure not even show no emotion

But really homie I'm broken

Some people say the tumor must be from the vaccination

Some people say you was too healthy how that cancer came in

All I know my heart bleeding like a laceration

Deep inside I'm badly aching

And this wound never gon' heal

I'll never know how you deal

Hope it will get easier may God grant you patience

Just hold on

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

I'm tired of going through the motions

I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end

Show me the way

Show me the way out

Is there a way?

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

Hold On Pain Ends

Hold On Pain Ends

I don't feel like there's any way out

But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends

Hold On Pain Ends

Hold On Pain Ends

I don't feel like there's any way out

But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends