You Must Love Me

Throughout my life (uh huh uh huh uh)

No matter what I've done (right)

You've been merciful and your love endureth (yeah)

Through all things (yeah)

For that, I am eternally grateful

Since my date of birth bought you nothing but hurt

Play those video games, stole change from ya purse

Sat on the cold court bench 'til I was arraigned in ya skirt

Saw the pain in ya face, still you maintained a smirk

All you did was motivate me, "Don't let 'em hold you back"

What I do? I turned around and I sold you crack

I was a bastard for that, still I'm drowning in shame

Just remember one thing now, you're not to blame

You was newly separated tryin' to escape ya world

And through my thirst, I didn't help you, I just made things worse

I hated me and everybody that created crack

Had me thinkin' the newest kicks and the latest gat

Still haven't apologized, so please play this back

While I try to come to terms with such a heinous act

You know in more than one way cocaine numbs the brain

All I did was think about how the funds once came

Then I ran across this memory and it stung the brain

How can you ever destroy the beauty from which one came

That's a savage, you're the reason

Why me and these beats make a marriage

Why I rhyme above average and I ain't shit

Glad you got yourself together, no thanks to me

Strong and beautiful the way thangs should be

You must love me

Say that you love me (you must love me)

All I know say that you must love me (you must love me)

Ohh yeah

We used to fight every night but I never would suffer

Just smile, my big brother's tryna make me tougher

As we grew fussing and fighting continued

As I plundered through ya stuff and snuck ya clothes to school

Got intense, real intense as we got older

Never believed it would lead to be poppin' one in your shoulder

Where my rings? Knew you had it 'cause you took too long

As Mickey, Annie and the girl that bought it looked on

Huffin' and puffin', gun in my hand, told you step outside

Hoping you said no but you hurt my pride

Made our way down the steps

Maybe you thought it was just a threat

Or maybe ya life was just that crazy

And you was beggin' for death

Try to justify this in my young mind

But the adrenaline and my ego hurt combined

Drove me berserk, saw the devil in your eyes

High off more than weed

Confused, I just closed my young eyes and squeezed

What a sound! Opened my eyes just in time

To see ya stumbling to the ground

Damn, what the fuck I done now?

Runnin' around in a circle thinking I'm assed out

Hot gun burnin' my waist, ran straight to Jaz' house

Like a stranger, damn I just shot my nigga

And ran off into the night as if it was not my nigga

Left the scene, how could I go out that way?

Still you asked to see me in the hospital the next day

You must love me

What after all the wrong I've done (you must love me)

I know you must (you must love me)

Everything in my power and within my frame

To protect you from this life and keep you away from the game

But you was one of the few people that I can trust

And the fact of the matter, I slang these pies for us

You put the pressure on me daily, rarely would you let it go

Was a thousand and one times I had to tell you no

But it was one of those days when nobody was around

And I needed emergency trip out of town

Searched my mental Rolodex for all the numbers I know

As you stared in my face asking me could you go

I agreed, said, "Send her, everything'll go smooth

Just tell her what to do and everything'll go through"

Strapped her body with them thangs as you boarded the plane

Couldn't explain the strange feeling that I caught in the vein

I'm thinking, why would I send you when I knew it ain't right?

I'm thinking, what would make you sacrifice ya life?

You must've love me

After everything that I've done wrong (you must love me)

I know inside you must love me (you must love me)

(You must love me)

(You must love me)

I know that you love me (you must love me)

You showed me I know it (you must love me)

I know (you must love me)

Say that you love me

Say that you love me (you must love me)

I know you must love me (you must love me)

(You must love me)

Oh yes, you do (you must love me)

Inside I know it

You've always shown it (you must love me)

You love me, yeah-yeah

Oh yeah (you must love me)

I know that you love me

(You must love me)

(You must love me)