The Letter

Dear girl in the garage

I owe you the full story

Years ago I buried my son

I found him hanging where he'd hung

Himself out like an old pair of jeans

It's the worst thing that I've ever seen

And the first thing I see when I dream

So I don't do much sleeping now

I just keep wondering how

I lost the only thing I can't replace

Silently screaming in space

And it destroyed our marriage

Threw it from the top story

Maureen couldn't leave the house

She just stood there looking out

Through curtains like he'd be home soon

And the worst thing was that I knew

She'd see him in all that I do

She'd see him in the way I walked

And hear him in the words I'd talk to

Catch him in the shadows of my face

We went silently drifting through space

Then there was Queenie

She said I shouldn't take the blame

She was soft and warm and all the things I lack

She helped me carry the heaviest burden

That a father can have upon his back

And I never thanked her for that

But I searched for courage

Like my father did before me

In the bottom of a whiskey glass

Spiraling and spinning fast

And bleeding out with every drink they'd pour me

It was the worst way to deal with my pain

But the first thing that I turned to that didn't turn away

Then one night when I was drunk and hurt

I vandalized my place of work and lay down broken and disgraced

Wishing I could vanish in to space

Then there was Queenie

She stood and took the blame

She was kind and brave and all the things I lack

She took the bullet for me, she took the burden

She lost her job and never came back

Oh and I never thanked her for that

Dear girl in the garage

Now you know the full story

Four months ago I left my home

To walk to Queenie all alone

Not for love, I've only ever loved my wife

But she helped me long ago and that is why

I knew I had to go I had to try

And I never would have walked if we never had have talked

And the sun wouldn't have shone through the cracks

And I'd just like to thank you for that